the day of the green.
i dont think i can call it fun. it was more depressing than anything.
perhaps it was a good time untill my depression set it. and when i see her it sets in. what ive lost what ive done wrong. all of it. that and the realisation that she let it all go and turned her back on me.
not saying that i dont deserve it . but anyway.
9:55- i go to daryls house.we talk and listen to music.
10:20-we go to the store and buy vodka.
10:55- we get home and have a nice sky on the rocks. then continue to fill our flasks. (byob to the bars)
11:22- we show up at imperial.
11:25_my mom shows up with some friends and they buy me a pabst. then figures she doesnt like it there. but that drink was nice.
11:38- a irish carbomb with damian.
11:40 i buy a glass of pbr. sipped on it twice and though i should down it. i then downed it. everyone laughs.
11:55- around this time she gets there with her friends (who were saying alot of shit about me earlyer that night as i walked by)
i then grab jon and he buys 4 irish car bombs. one for jon, colin, jons friend and i.
12:05- i start to walk away because im sad. and i hear her say "fucking asshole"
i then start pointing my fingers to the door like a drunken asshole and say "leave" repeatedly.
12.35-james saids veno is fun. so we walk to veno. we get in and i but a drink. and another carbomb.
1:15- jon wants to hit seven . im starting to stumble. we get to seven and i have to pee. i stand buy a glass door waiting for a free pisser.
1:20- the glass door to my right is locked but i push the cloth to the side and see a man talking on the phone as he lays on the ground.
i then knock and ask him to unlock it so i can find a bathroom. he gets up. stumbles and starts kicking the door. i walk away five feet after motioning "no no no" the glass brakes. very loud. some guys points at me.....
1:25- "what the fuck are you pointing at. i didnt brake it. there is a guy kicking it on the other side of the door"
he then looks at me in a not so nice way and flips me off. jon then grabs me and i tell him "let me go i didnt break it. (he didnt believe me at first) i then proceed to tell the man. "im going to put you in the fucking hospital you lying mother fucker." his girlfriend is the only one who stands up. she is fat with her lebre pierced. (trashy)
jon drags me outside and we start walking down the street. only to be picked up by johnny law.
1:28- "how much have you had to drink tonight?" the officer saids "a few beers" i reply. "how old are you?" he saids.. "19 years old sir" o sler out. "what are you doing in a bar trying to fight somone" he saids. "i wasnt in that bar i was just passing by." ok well just wait here.
i then tell him why the fat girl was yelling at me. and i really was thinking i was doing such a good job at explaining the situation. (jon later tells me how impressed he was with my keen use of words, so im guesing i did well.)
-1:38the cop lets me go. and i then begin to tell the 5 people im with that "i need to get in a fight", "lets go to sheas"
sooo we walk to south virginia. and i puch things the whole way there. windows. walls. you name it.
2:10-we show up to sheas.
we get in 2 fights. i dont feel well.
2:45its hard to stand so i walk home. i get home throw up and pass out.
keep in mind that i do not remember big chucks of this night. only my depression and yelling.
my voice is now gone.
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