| Monday, August 27th, 2007 |
| 3:24 pm |
wu tang killa b
i had alot of fun a rock the bells. and im happy i was lucky enough to go.
i want to move in with my mom.
i respect my friends and the way they are.
you should get to know me.
come to see me.
converse with me..
and stop the superbad lines. i saw it a month before you. its the funniest movie ever and i dont want to get sick of it.
i keep having moments where i take a step back and start to notice how much i have changed and the way i think, and the way i act.... it really freaks me out.
im changed for the better. |
| Monday, August 13th, 2007 |
| 4:43 pm |
its not looking good.
but its looking better. |
| Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007 |
| 7:10 pm |
ouch ouch ouch
my legs hurt sooo bad. i had a 5 mile run yesterday with richie.
i cant believe i did the whole thing.
ive been feeling alot better since i quit smoking.
and i did 8-6-4-2 pull up sets, half way through my run.
im sorry. im not trying to brag. but 5miles. up hill. thats fucking rad. im happy with how i feel and look. i thinks im gonna have a good spring. slash. summer.
good skin. new tattoo's. new bike. new cloths. nice hair. beauty school. fading depression.
ive never had any of that. and i feel like a better person.
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: say anything |
| Monday, April 2nd, 2007 |
| 10:56 am |
stolen
its rad, when you go to a movie with your friends on april 1st at 10:20. and you get out of your movie at midnight in the hood. you find your window broken and your 400 dollar phone gone. (with car charger i might addd) soo im just about ready to give up. and to top off the cake i get shitty people talking about how i owe them money when they cant even talk to me.
the human race. or just immature girls will never cease to surprise me.
but im glad im not running around trying to sleep with everything to prove something |
| Saturday, March 31st, 2007 |
| 2:47 pm |
the time flew
i like how i made peace with somone last night. im glad that i now know people can know when they messed up or said somthing they shouldnt have and be a grown up about it and say sorry.
i have faith in the world again.
steves birthday is today. so we went out last night. redheaded sluts are good. (the drink) ahahahahaha
annd well. i cleaned up life a bit yesterday. and its coming together piece by piece.
i have no idea how we were out so late last night. before i knew it we were at mel's and it was 430.
me and jon almost kicked the poo out of some shit talking bum. but we walked away. i guess i still know how to do that. |
| Thursday, March 29th, 2007 |
| 10:22 pm |
i like how my family tells me about plans. and i get happy about them. there set and im going. but somwhere along the line they became idealistic witch they arnt because there happining. and when somone gets pissed they knock you down the friends list. its a fun game we all like to play. so ill keep on my smile. and ill try to stay happy even tho somtimes im not. but hey. im human.
all i know is that i think things could be better. and i tried. and now life will be fun. and all im ssaying is that i wish you were here with me. or there. but it wont happen. just dont bump me down the line when i start to get happy.
lala land is for kings. and life is good. |
| Thursday, March 22nd, 2007 |
| 6:32 pm |
for the last 5 days ive had a cold. and a temp. of 102ยบ i feel like hell. i just want to be better.
i never get sick. you gotta love the thing about depression and sickness ontop of it.
you feel ten times more alone. you feel 10 times less attractive. and yea. it blows.
on the plus side. i have yet to die. or wait. is that a negative? anyone?
well. kennys little brother broke both of his legs the other day. i think ill go say hi. |
| Monday, March 19th, 2007 |
| 7:09 pm |
the day of the green.
i dont think i can call it fun. it was more depressing than anything.
perhaps it was a good time untill my depression set it. and when i see her it sets in. what ive lost what ive done wrong. all of it. that and the realisation that she let it all go and turned her back on me.
not saying that i dont deserve it . but anyway.
9:55- i go to daryls house.we talk and listen to music.
10:20-we go to the store and buy vodka.
10:55- we get home and have a nice sky on the rocks. then continue to fill our flasks. (byob to the bars)
11:22- we show up at imperial.
11:25_my mom shows up with some friends and they buy me a pabst. then figures she doesnt like it there. but that drink was nice.
11:38- a irish carbomb with damian.
11:40 i buy a glass of pbr. sipped on it twice and though i should down it. i then downed it. everyone laughs.
11:55- around this time she gets there with her friends (who were saying alot of shit about me earlyer that night as i walked by)
i then grab jon and he buys 4 irish car bombs. one for jon, colin, jons friend and i.
12:05- i start to walk away because im sad. and i hear her say "fucking asshole"
i then start pointing my fingers to the door like a drunken asshole and say "leave" repeatedly.
12.35-james saids veno is fun. so we walk to veno. we get in and i but a drink. and another carbomb.
1:15- jon wants to hit seven . im starting to stumble. we get to seven and i have to pee. i stand buy a glass door waiting for a free pisser.
1:20- the glass door to my right is locked but i push the cloth to the side and see a man talking on the phone as he lays on the ground.
i then knock and ask him to unlock it so i can find a bathroom. he gets up. stumbles and starts kicking the door. i walk away five feet after motioning "no no no" the glass brakes. very loud. some guys points at me.....
1:25- "what the fuck are you pointing at. i didnt brake it. there is a guy kicking it on the other side of the door"
he then looks at me in a not so nice way and flips me off. jon then grabs me and i tell him "let me go i didnt break it. (he didnt believe me at first) i then proceed to tell the man. "im going to put you in the fucking hospital you lying mother fucker." his girlfriend is the only one who stands up. she is fat with her lebre pierced. (trashy)
jon drags me outside and we start walking down the street. only to be picked up by johnny law.
1:28- "how much have you had to drink tonight?" the officer saids "a few beers" i reply. "how old are you?" he saids.. "19 years old sir" o sler out. "what are you doing in a bar trying to fight somone" he saids. "i wasnt in that bar i was just passing by." ok well just wait here.
i then tell him why the fat girl was yelling at me. and i really was thinking i was doing such a good job at explaining the situation. (jon later tells me how impressed he was with my keen use of words, so im guesing i did well.)
-1:38the cop lets me go. and i then begin to tell the 5 people im with that "i need to get in a fight", "lets go to sheas"
sooo we walk to south virginia. and i puch things the whole way there. windows. walls. you name it.
2:10-we show up to sheas.
we get in 2 fights. i dont feel well.
2:45its hard to stand so i walk home. i get home throw up and pass out.
keep in mind that i do not remember big chucks of this night. only my depression and yelling.
my voice is now gone. |
| Saturday, March 17th, 2007 |
| 9:55 pm |
and i would also like to say that im pretty disappointed in some reno people. claiming to be so open minded and not listening to what other people say when it comes to judging people. no no no. still fake you are.. yes yes yes. its a shame.
stop talking shit. and chill out. you dont know me. and i sure as hell dont know you. so stop eye ball fuckin me just because you hear that i did this or that. losers. |
| 9:47 pm |
tonight started to bum me out. but. then when you sit back and relize how much more mature you are than little girls who base there lives on being hypocrites and talking shit about people and situations they have no place. you come to find that it aint no thing. im just content with where i am in this world and i dont think i would change much.
lets just focas on the summer and how amazing road trips with jon are gonna be. and how i got my tattoo appointments set.. whoop whoop. summer love is coming. i just gotta forget about my last little mess. |
| Friday, March 16th, 2007 |
| 11:52 am |
.bluemoon.
ive been eating this pizza for 13 years and i aint gonna stop now. plus it makes it alot better when rad people work here and amazing friends.
you know your a buster. and that i got the goods. |
| Thursday, March 15th, 2007 |
| 10:32 pm |
and i want to add
im a good person. people dont give it a chance. or they hurt me. and i dont play with that shit. boom. |
| 10:18 pm |
to everyone and no one.
im pretty happy on life. im not broke. im not in a bad way. i havnt had more than a glass of wine or a beer in 2 weeks. i quit smoking. 3weeks strong. and pretty much im a gangster and i do what i want.
its come to show that when im depressed i make more money. maybe cuz i work and sleep. maybe cuz sell more of the goods. maybe cuz depression levels me out. but anyway. im feeling good. im geting my bike. and i like good people. and i stay awayfrom the haters . the ones who make me feel bad. people who say hi and fake it. people who think there cool. but livin like fools.
but yay me for not being able to break anymore hearts. or lead any more chickies on. i think im livin the life in my own mind.
fight club today. made me think about the non important things in life and how i need to simplify. soo. im taking it down a notch. and i dig it. sooo lets work. lets go back to school. and lets drive a 84 year old woman to the store.
yadadamean. fucker.
Current Music: everything you aint heard |
| Tuesday, March 6th, 2007 |
| 2:49 pm |
too cool for school
Not really, just too poor. but. on a lighter note. my job is amazing for snowboarding. 6:45am till 9:15am. then gnarstar by 10am. then i stay till 2pm. back by 2:45pm. and i shower and work at 315. if you want to call it work. I pretty much sit around with 25 kids, and play connect four. or my personal favorite.... UNO! i kill it. life is good. and i feel better about not holding back. or letting my self be hurt anymore. soooo ill end it with hope and love. i hope you all are having an amazing day in this beautiful city |
| Monday, February 26th, 2007 |
| 9:19 am |
scenekickin it
Posting from my phone? Pretty fresh I suppose...I say things when I wake up and still don't really know what's going on, that make me feel like a dick head, and maybe I am, but anyway. I'm doing good at this posting thing, almost everyday, lets keep it up, I think it helps me work problems out |
| Sunday, February 25th, 2007 |
| 2:19 am |
well im back. i just looked and its been about a year and a half since ive posted anything. alot has changed. i dont really understand life alltogether right now. i just read michelle's journal. ouch. why do i still get worked up about all this? im a sucker. but i want to post more. so i think ill be back.
anyone have a job in mind for me? i need work asap. |
| Sunday, November 13th, 2005 |
| 4:09 pm |
cry
today is michelles birthday .. and thats all that matters.. i love this girl so much.. and the one day thats hers i feel like i mess up..
last night was a hell.. my back window got broken out while chillin at sterling appz.. and yea thats $$ i dont have to spend right now..
and she hasnt got much sleep.. down.. i tried to make a supprise.. but her mom let it go.. dammit..
so all i know now is that i paid for death cab tickets on ebay and we are gonna go to alcatraz on tues. and i love this girl.. soo.. life is good.. and life is sad..
<3yallz |
| Thursday, October 27th, 2005 |
| 1:18 am |
ahhhh...i met that fucker.. Hooooly shit.. ok so tonight i thought was just gonna be ok .. but it turned out amazing.. everyone was happy and rad.. michelle almost beat a girl up .. awesome...
i drank alot.. bright eyes was amazing.. bright eyes was amazing again!!.. and then with my ninja attack.. i sneaked back and met mike and conner.. wow.. did that seriously happen.. like a convo with a serious idol!
.. i know hes emo and everyone thinks hes gay.. but im the happiest person in the world.... and me and michelle are on amazing grounds. so everyone should envy.. my drunkness and my love .. word up..
..amazed.. Current Mood:  surprisedCurrent Music: digital ash |
| Thursday, October 6th, 2005 |
| 12:00 pm |
ok, so i guess ive been 18 for about 12 hours now and i have to say.. i dont feel much diff. i mean .. i can buy porn.. i guess thats cool.. and i can smoke.. ahhh.. anyway..
....who the hell was thinking that it would be a good idea that i'd be able to go to war and die for my country .. but i cant buy beer... and have a good time.. it just seems lame.. plus i could totaly sign up for a credit card.. but at the same time.. i cant walk into a casino and gamble.. i guess in both ends they are happy i cant control my spending...
<3 and i think michelle just made me the happiest person in the world cuz she got me new snowboarding pants and a new snowboarding dvd.. yeee haa..<3
<3adam
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: damian rice.. |
| Monday, September 26th, 2005 |
| 2:21 am |
word to winter!.. I might be the only one..im thrilled winter is coming... pants and hoodies are my style..
winter is very much welcome..
seriously i will be broke till the new year.. but ill have a snowboard a pass and a smile.. maybe an ipod if my mommy loves me.. <3
i think im gonna throw in for the night pass at "boring hill".. boreal.. or because of all the asians.. "boriental".. he he.. lame joke i suck..
anyway party to anyone who wants to snowboard this winter and smile till summer hits again
Current Mood:  anxious
Current Music: knifes because of candace |
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